Smilky

 I have this hangover with my current favorite song from the artist SUD and one of their popular songs entitled "Smilky".
With a very unique title, it will make you curious and say "what does that even mean??"
Along with its jazzy feels, I find the song very relaxing and sensual.

For the past weeks that I was in my blogging hiatus, I've been busy with work. (Huhu I hate adulting).  It's a whole new working environment that I have to adjust to. 

New people, new bosses, new workplace, etc. I have countless questions in my head that run all throughout the day: 

"Am I ready for this?" "Is this what I really wanted?" "What now?" "Where am I going?" "What do I even have to do this".

Hello quarter life crisis. I always find myself looking forward for those two days of the week I call "day  off". I literally just sleep my way through it and wake up and realize it's another day that I have to go to work.

Don't get me wrong. I love being a nurse! But there are just some 'transition' issues that I have to deal with.

I have to skip some family events since I don't consistently have offs on weekends.

I have to say no to some drinking sesh with my friends because I'm always scheduled with 6am duties. (Shifting problems, ugh.)

And I can't just absent myself from duties because hello, I'm a lifesaver.

Am I ready to adult?

Whether I like it or not, I have no choice right? I have to suck it up, forget my childish rants, and take responsibility. To all those who are still going to school, you guys are damn lucky  to have everything provided. And to all those fresh grads out there, we are off the training wheels guys, no more allowance from the parentals. But who cares? It might be a big, scary world, but we have to embrace reality. We will always have those jitters, but we'll never know how strong we really are until we take that risk and do it.

Some days you can be a brat, but at the end of the day, your decisions in life will make you. Life isn't as smilky as you think it is. Nobody said it was going to be easy, but how you deal with it will make the journey a fun ride. Have fun. Savor each moment, whether it is good or bad. 

Just imagine when you reach  your 40's and you sit by the beach and look back to the days when you were just a little child entering the jungles of what I call the "real world" and how you played through it and proudly say "that was a heck of a journey but I made it".

So cheer up little fighter, you can always do it. Even when you think can't, you always can.

White chiffon top (Glamour) | Maroon shorts (Greenhills) | Nude pumps (Payless) | Rose gold watch (Parfois) | Red sling bag (Bazaar)

*Photographed by: Paola Gaytano 

xx,

Kea Ortega