After graduation was when reality hit me like a giant truck. I had to look for a part time job to support my needs while reviewing for the upcoming board exams. I resorted to being a barista in the world’s number 1 coffee shop; Starbucks. I admit, I reeeeeally had a hard time adjusting to the working world because I was super maarte! Hahaha but fortunately for me, I had the best boss and colleagues. Although my kaartehan pissed them off at first, they got used to it and figured that it was something innate in me. Hahahaha. It was a very humbling experience to be part of this family. I was dealing with the 1st job jitters, worst heart break ever, and the nerve wracking pressure of the boards all at the same time. So from weighing 55 kgs, after 2 months, I lost 10kgs. Haha instant payat (though I’m not recommending it! Super dangerous for the health)
In the middle of the fight, I kinda accepted the fact that I was destined to fail the boards. Since I can’t handle the heartbreak plus the physical especially the emotional exhaustion. I just surrendered everything to Him. And truly, His love never fails, by the start of year 2016, I got my RN at the end of my name.
I was on my way to fulfilling my dreams to become a nurse working at the #1 hospital (for me it was the #1) haha I already (semi) gave up my dream of being a doctor because I wanted to work and try my luck. Unluckily, things didn’t work out hahaha that was I think the worst 5 months of my life! Chos! Rants. Pero just look at the brighter side, I learned a lot! Though it was more on the negative and my work didn’t mold me to be a better a professional, I told myself that this will be my turning point to retract and go with my original plan of being a doctor. I lost my mom the same year, and my work didn’t even empathize with the grief, and so letting go of this job made it easier. I wasn’t being stubborn, nor violating the rules, but I have my priorities straight and after the traumatic experience of my mom’s death, I needed to go to a place conducive for me to heal. And so I had to quit my job, gave up my nursing career and went back to the battle I left. It may seem like a downfall since many said that I was leaving a big opportunity behind working at this prestigious hospital, but it was a big relief man! And I am more than excited to go to a different place where my mentors would not impugn me and more importantly guide me to grow professionally.
The first time I took the NMAT I got devastated with the results! It was the lowest of the low. Partida, I only self reviewed and tip for the first time takers, take the NMAT on april! Since this exam is percentile, I strongly advise that you take refresher courses or review classes, since you need the highest grade possible to get in to your dream school, I suggest that you lay all your weapons down and fight the battle armored and ready.
Currently, I’m just days away before med school starts. I’m still feeling euphoric about it because I’m a step closer to the real deal. Maybe as I journey on, more rants and ayoko-na-ano-ba-tong-pinasok-ko posts are upcoming. Please stay tuned as I journey on with med school proper on the way to that white coat.
Hi Dianne!!! Thanks for dropping by!! Actually it's gonna be an iyak-tawa journey hahaha but still hoping for the best to get that white coat after 4 years (?). Will update here once in a while if buhay pa kami. Hahaha 1st year din yung friend mo?☺ baka classmates kamiii
ReplyDeleteBakit nung nagreview ako lalo ako tumaba? Huhu! After my Mom passed away, internship na namin nun and sobrang coincidence na naassign ako sa hospital where she had patellofemoral replacement (POC, senior internship) and where she was diagnosed with cancer (DLSUMC, junior internship). Grabe, tinatagan ko na lang talaga din loob ko nun. I somehow survived kasi wala naman talaga din akong choice. Haha. I didn't took the board exam this year. Siguro next year, handa na ako :) Nakakamiss din magwork sa hospital kahit pappano. Haha. Anyway, goodluck on med school! You can do it! ;)
ReplyDeleteActually na-heartbroken lang ako kaya ako pumayat hahaha kidding aside, hirap ng part time job plus review kaya super stressed! Hahaha I really miss working in the hospital na din :( But after everything that has happened especially when my mom passed, I wanted to take a break from all the toxicity kaya I went to school again. Anyways, go get that boards next year Elaine!! Wishing you the best of luck!!😘❤️️
DeleteGirl you are so amazing! Congrats on becoming an RN and being on your way to a doctor! That's a huge accomplishment and not one to be taken lightly. I totally LOL'd when you referred to yourself as maarte. I'm half filipino so I know what that means =)
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OMG! Hahahahaha anyways, thank you so much for the words of encouragement. Med school is real !@$!#%^$ ! Everyday is a different level of stress. But it will be worth is some day that's for sure ❤️️
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ReplyDeleteRandomly stumbled upon your blog through a common blogger friend :) Your name looks very familiar then I remembered I saw you sa IG story ng college barkada ko. :) She's studying Med in UERM too!
Hi Patricia! Yup nakwento nga niya sakin that you were close friends back in college! Thanks for dropping by my blog. Hope to read more from your blog too!❤️️😘
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DeleteBack read through your blog and Thomasian ka din pala! So nice to meet you! Good luck in med! :)